I am not pregnant!!! Hurray!!

My menses came today!! I am overjoyed!! Haha!!

I'm not nuts, just happy that Charis is not having another sibling so soon ;)

My menses are usually very regular, so I got real worried when it was late by more than a week this month. I am totally not prepared to be have another baby so soon again, especially when I need to take care of my brother now. Imagine taking care of him with my heavy tummy... the risk on mine & baby's health because of our lower immune system while taking care of him... & most importantly... I want to give Charis at least 2 years of my full attention before another baby pop along so that I can spend quality time with her in her most crucial 0-2 years old stage.

Since I was worried I might be pregnant again, I tried convincing myself that another baby might be good... just to be positive you know? I was concerned that if I am negative, the foetus would be able to feel the rejection. After all, there's no accident in God's timing, especially when babies are God's precious. He already created us even before we were in our mothers' womb, so how can there ever be accidents right? :)

Anyway, I was convincing myself that since I'm still young & has the stamina to take care of the babies, might as well be real productive these few years, especially when my sister still can look after Charis for me. After 4 years, I can go full force in my career again. Rather than juggling between the baby & my job now, then 2 years later when I want to focus on my work, I'm pregnant again... so disruptive...

But nevertheless, when I know I am really not pregnant, I am still overjoyed! Hurray!!

Me = Demoted; Charis = Promoted

The night before James travelled to Japan, I asked him, "Will you miss Charis or me more?"

... "Both."

"Charis or me more?"

Grinning... "Both."

... "So means Charis lor..."

"Cuz I see you more often but I seldom see Charis. I only see her on weekends."

Conclusion:
1. Charis is now the queen while I have been demoted.
2. Maybe I should stay over at my mom's house over the weekdays too?

Miss u, Charis!

I'd moved back to my mom's place temporarily to take care of my brother (he's home about a week now). I missed James & Charis because I seen them less often now. In fact, James in now in Japan on a working trip & will only be home just before CNY.

Every week when I go to my sister's house to fetch Charis home, she would be so excited to see me. Her whole expression would be filled with joy & it simply melts my heart. It's sad but I'm so relieved she still remembers her Mummy & is so happy to see me.

She hasn't learnt to flip & turn yet. I think her progress in learning has been slow & affected since I can only spend weekends with her. On Saturdays morning, James is serving while I sometimes have to be with my brother, & then followed by church service. On Sunday, it's in-laws visitations the whole day. So actually, the 3 of us seldom get to spend much quality time together as a family, lest about teaching & developing her motor skills.

Sometimes, I wished I could do more for her, but my brother needs me too. But as my brother improves, I'll be able to spend more time with her then. Looking forward to that day!

Charis' Newfound Friend